Dear Grandma,
I cannot believe that this is goodbye. There is
so much left unsaid and undone. What is hardest is realizing that I could not be with you during your final days.
A friend told me that the pain I'm feeling for you is really love, and that it is ok to be sad and to grieve - it is just
another form of love - knowing that has really helped. I know we were with each other in spirit, and I am grateful that
you were surrounded by family and loved ones.
I know my life has been blessed beyond measure just
by having you a part of it. All the competitions and performances you were at, the cookies you made that helped me survive
my first two years of college, the loving words of encouragement, the hugs, and the 'I love you's will all be missed.
You were a woman of action, never letting little things get in the way. You were always the first one to see the bright
side of things and to make the most of everything. You lived a very selfless life, making sure other's needs were met
first. You were the strongest, kindest, most caring, and most admirable woman I have ever known, and I will feel honoured
if I become half the woman you were.
I especially look up to your faith and the relationship
you had with God. And I am so happy that His loving arms are surrounding you now. It is so comforting to know
that this is not 'goodbye', but rather a 'see you later.'
I wish there was more I could say, but the words just
cannot come right now. It is so hard to put twenty years of love and feelings into just a few words. I know that
you love me and that I love you, and in the end, I know that is all that really matters. I will always love you and
cherish the times we had together, as much as I wish that there would be more of those. I will never forget you.
Love always,
Amber Maurine
Ecclesiastes 3:1-2,4 "To everything there is a
season, a time for every purpose under heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die; A time to weep, and a time to laught;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance."
1 Corinthians 1:4 "I thank my God always concerning
you for the grace of God which was given to you by Christ Jesus."
"I'm glad I didn't know the way it all would end, the way it all would go. Our lives
are better left to chance. I could've missed the pain, but I'd have had to miss the dance."
~ Garth Brooks, The Dance
